My entry today was initially intended to be a comment for Pn. Rahmah's 'Passion For Teaching'. Well, if you really know me, I'm not the type of person who knows how to go straight to the point of what I'm trying to say. So, anyways, I just HAD to say what was on my mind when I read Pn. Rahmah's entry on her blog.
So, its been almost a year of teaching for me. Until today, I find it quite hard to focus on one job when I'm at school let alone have time to really think of the most important matter for me which is to teach English.
So, why the problem?
Anyhow, with regards to teaching English, I feel there's so much more for me to learn (and my skills haven't really developed because of the lack of PnP hours that I have done - not blaming anybody else though). I still remember crying because I felt guilty that I have not been teaching my students that well and also feeling like I have been neglecting them by not entering class (this shows when they can't recall what I have taught since I sometimes am not able to do follow up activity). Mind you, I feel like I am very passionate about my job but I sometimes wonder: 'Is it not enough to be passionate and willing to do almost anything for the growth of my students?'. Some teachers tell me I shouldn't think too much of the students. But in what situation is it considered to be 'too much' or 'just enough'?
As a newbie, I have been given a lot of work for the sake of experience in various fields. Here are some of the various works that have been handed down to me (I have a few more positions that I hold, but I don't mention here because of the very little responsibility I hold in those positions):
- Class Teacher
- Committee for Ponteng Sifar - every month, I am required to make an analysis of students' attendance
- Volleyball and Athletics Coach - training is done almost everyday in Semester 1
- Archery teacher - training is done every day in Semester 2 (our school just started having the archery club in Semester 2) and archery courses are sometimes done during PnP hours
So, this may seem like a small list of work that I do at school but they are among the work given to me that I feel has taken up most of my teaching time. Please do not see me listing my work as showing off bout what I do at school. I am only attempting to give a clearer view of my situation in hopes of getting advices from other more experienced teachers.
So, here goes my story as a newbie teacher in a Malaysian school.
I started working early this year with hopes of developing skills in teaching English but by the end of the year, I developed more skills as a coach (since I'm new, it's not like I can decline any work given to me)! Don't get me wrong because I'm not complaining. Being a coach has developed my skills in teaching my students to become mentally stronger because an athlete does not only require strength physically. And fortunately for me, the Physical Education (PE) teacher in my school is very keen on sharing his knowledge in educating youngsters (as you can see, I am not using the word 'students' because I personally feel that he has helped me understand how to speak and treat youngsters to help them grow mentally and physically stronger in a very subtle way)
Anyhow, with regards to teaching English, I feel there's so much more for me to learn (and my skills haven't really developed because of the lack of PnP hours that I have done - not blaming anybody else though). I still remember crying because I felt guilty that I have not been teaching my students that well and also feeling like I have been neglecting them by not entering class (this shows when they can't recall what I have taught since I sometimes am not able to do follow up activity). Mind you, I feel like I am very passionate about my job but I sometimes wonder: 'Is it not enough to be passionate and willing to do almost anything for the growth of my students?'. Some teachers tell me I shouldn't think too much of the students. But in what situation is it considered to be 'too much' or 'just enough'?
I remember talking to a friend of mine while in teaching college and saying 'Where are we supposed to draw the line?'. Back then, all we could do was say 'Maybe experience will answer our questions.' But after a almost a year of teaching, I can't help but think: What happens if we aren't able to perform during our first year of teaching? It still affects the students we teach, right? So, what are newbies supposed to do or think during their first year of teaching? I have so many questions to ask, and I have gone through a lot of emotions. Unfortunately, I have heard of some of my friends who have lost their passion for teaching even in the first year. I remember my lecturer telling me that we would loose our passion at one point in our teaching career - oh boy, was I scared when he said that! But it is true, this year, I have already felt that. But I'm grateful to Allah that when I felt down, out of the blue, a student of mine came up to me and said 'Teacher! Saya tak pernah dapat markah lebih 50. English memang fun la teacher!' But I can't really see what I did right and whether it was enough that this particular student of mine only obtained 55 marks in her exam.
So, am I being passionate in doing my job? Is having passion enough to help me become a better teacher? I mean, it does involve more than just passion, right? So, what else should I be doing? Do ALL newbies have the same thoughts as me? Or should I be satisfied with my friends' response that 'I'm thinking too much'? With all the work I'm given, is it possible for me to be always passionate? Questions, questions, questions....answers anyone? (~_~) hurmmm....
Salam and Hi everyone ^_^
Wow..haha..it's already been nearly a year since my last post
You must be wondering if I was drowned by the workload at school...well..yeah...I guess I was...getting used to the massive amount of workload (not to mention getting used to working with people) has somewhat made me realise that there's more to a teacher than just teaching...and I'm very much thankful for the bittersweet experience...
I really can't wait for the holidays (for all sorts of different reasons..hehe...)...I'm already thinking of plans for next year's teaching. This year I was given the opportunity to teach Form 2 and next year will be a mystery for me...hmmm...This year, I wasn't able to really think much of my teaching methods, so I tried various ways - which I do NOT recommend to anyone! Next year, I'm thinking of using the task-based approach on teaching...have lots of reading up to do!
Other than planning for next year, I'll be preparing for other responsibilities as well. FYI, I've been and still will be coach for various sports (despite the spinal injury I'm still suffering). I haven't really played volleyball during my school and university days but I've been appointed as the Volleybal Team Coach. I'm also involved in archery (which I am so excited about ^_^), handball, javelin (this year I was given the opportunity to go to MSSK and was appointed the district coach - can't say I was much of a coach though (~_~) but I'm very thankful for the experience).
 |
| I would have put some pictures of myself but my laptop crashed a few months back and I have lost all my pics (~_~) |
Other than preparing for school, I can't wait to spend time with my family. I haven't had much chance to see them since I started working. My first semester was spent only at school (yup, not even ONE day spent at home with my family). I even had to work during the 1st semester's mid-sem break (I must admit, it was heartbreaking - but now, after nearly a year working at school, I can accept if I was told to come for work during the holidays). FYI, due to the stress I've faced during working, I've also picked up a hobby - just to keep my mind of school. I've learnt how to sew! ^_^ Who would have thought that I would learn how to sew! I'm not saying that I don't like thinking of school, but I feel more relaxed and able to carry out my work better after picking up this new hobby. So, to you new teachers out there: get a hobby if you feel like you can't handle the stress from work! Think of happy thoughts and you'll be fine! Here's my fourth try to make a dress for my niece (the first 3 trials were a disaster!!)
Well, for now, I guess that's all from me. I've experiencing the sudden big flood here in Kuala Nerang. Didn't have electricity for 2 whole days and still have preparations to do for the few more weeks before the school holidays.
Hello everyone,
Just thot I'd inform that I am finally in school! I'm posted to a school in Kuala Nerang...yup, its a pedalaman school...but I think its alright...I'll update more later since its been and still is a very busy week...plus, I don't have much time to access the Internet as of now =(
Wish me luck!! =)
Just to inform that there's another interesting link I forgot to include yesterday. My sister found this link and I had forgotten to link it when she told me about it..hehe..
Enjoy~
At last, I have the energy (and mood) to add a few links on my blog. I've already had it bookmarked for months, and I think it would be best to share them with everyone. I've put the links into two groups which are:
- Malaysian Sites - for sites created by Malaysian educators and based on the Malaysian education system.
- International Sites - for site by educators who come from countries around the world
"Schoolmatterstome is the site for the gathering of people who share the interest in matters related to school, students, teachers, teaching and learning process, also the classroom.
This is also the center of information about education related matters and the place to share resources for teaching and learning in school. It is also a place for building up a community of people who are concern over the importance of creating a quality education for everyone.
We’ll find a way to improve the Malaysian Eduacation! We’ll try to implant the mindset that “school really matters to me” in everyone’s head!" - The School Matters To Me Team -
"This is a website created by Just English Sdn. Bhd. as an online resource to guide Malaysian secondary school students who are preparing for English Literature examinations in PMR and SPM" - The Literature For Secondary Schools Team -
"We connect people with learning opportunities and creative ideas from the UK and aim to build lasting relationships across the world." - British Council (Malaysia) Team -
~ the site contains information on courses held by British Council (mainly related to learning English for students and adults and also for teacher development); British Council also organises examinations like International English Language Testing System (IELTS), Cambridge International Exams, Teaching Knowledge Test (TKT) and others; and of course, the site also includes information on studying in the UK.
"Te Kete Ipurangi [TKI] - the Online Learning Centre is New Zealand's bilingual education portal and is an initiative of the Ministry of Education.
The Te Kete Ipurangi vision is to provide New Zealand schools with a cost effective electronic platform to communicate curriculum and administrative materials, enhance teaching and learning, raise student achievement and advance professional development for school management and teaching staff." - The TKI Team -
~this site offers materials to be used for Listening activities in the classroom. The materials in the site are provided for free and maintained well by the site owner, Randall Davis. However, its not available for download, but can be used online. Visit the site and see for yourself! Its a great one!
"...features tools and resources that save educators time and make learning fun for students in grades Pre-K--12. With over 20,000 resources, the site includes a vast online library of lesson plans, graphic organizers, printables, classroom management advice, email newsletters, quizzes, and printable books to help teachers enhance student learning, meet local and national educational goals, and manage their teaching lives and classrooms with ease. TeacherVision understands how valuable time is for teachers and highlights timely and relevant cross-curricular content for each subject, grade, and theme; making it simple for teachers to create a study unit that is inclusive and varied." - The Teacher Vision Team -
"HotChalk is a learning environment for K-12 teachers, students and parents that includes a learning management system (LMS), a rich library of teacher-contributed lesson plans, premium digital content, and professional development for teachers in a Web-based environment. Available through any Internet browser, the HotChalk Learning Environment is an easy to use system and brings teachers, students and parents together to improve education." - The Hotchalk Team -
~ I came across this website thanks to the School Matters To Me blog.
So, as I have mentioned in my previous post, here's the website created by a group of new teachers. Hope you'll give the site a visit and register yourself. It's a place where you can share your teaching experience, discuss issues related to education, share resources and etc. Owh, and you can also find the group in facebook!
Well...it has been a while...a long while actually since my last post. I've been waiting for news on my posting since December and I've just got the result last week. And I'll be posted to KEDAH!!
I didn't post anything in my blog because I became so emotional about my posting. It wasn't really because I was eager to start work, but because how I was treated by a few people who were working in the Ministry. Unfortunately, there were more people who were unhelpful and rude rather than people who were helpful. Me and my friends were told that the posting result will be out in December. My friends who are going to teach primary school sure did get their posting in December but the secondary teachers seemed to face a problem. I went to Putrajaya (Bahagian Sekolah Harian KPM) to talk to the people who were supposed to handle the posting process and they told me that the posting forms were missing! They even told me to wait till October 2011. Oh boy, was I panicking back then. It wasn't only me who felt that way. My other friends who were still waiting for their posting also started feeling disappointed with the whole posting issue. But, I realised that if ministry says we have to wait, we just have to wait. That's what made me feel so uneasy.
I wished I was able to do something but there wasn't except to prepare for school in 2010 in any way I can. Well, at least I'm doing something good and not just waiting for my posting result. So, I just did some light reading on the new lit component and also brainstorm ideas on how to teach English to learners of different proficiency levels. Owh, I also came across a group of new teachers who have started a website (after a while i realised they were my juniors back in college =) Good job people!!). I'll promote their group in the next entry. Hehe...
Hello, Kedah!! Here I come!!!! Hijau Kuning all the way!!
P/S: Yep...I'm very thankful to get Kedah even though I asked for another state. I'll do my best in my new place. I expect its gonna be difficult, but hope my love for the profession won't diminish!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
